A penny for a thought...

Praise the Lord! I have finally fulfilled the pledge I've pledge unto God. Although the amount is not big nor small, it's a substantial amount for me... Cause it took me sometime to pay raise up this amount of cash...

Quiet a relieve for me cause I was afraid that I wasn't able to raise up that much to contribute, especially I do not have a job, just got back from missions not too long ago and my finances are rather tight... Things in family, though are improving, but it's not in the arena of able to spend as and when I can or give whenever I want. However, I am believing for greater breakthroughs to come into my life.

Today is a big day for Children's Church. Targeted 9000 kids to attend Children's Church and today's the first day... It was fun helping out the workers from Children Church. This year, I did nothing much but to help out with the logistics. Cool ehh... hehehe... at least got to rest for awhile...

Those kids look so CUTE~~~ Most of them are below the age of 8years old. They look so small... so cute... so... awwww... I'm lost for words... How I wish... that I'd have a kid too... lolx... Saw a pair of twins... Matthew's nephews. They are so cute and so nice. When they saw Matthew, they called him "uncle"... I was like... awwww... melting inside my heart. Hmmm... some of them even called me Uncle... guess... the time is drawing near that I should be "promoted" to uncle soon... lolx...

During evening time, I received a SMS from a cell group member. It was a pleasent surprise cause he hasn't been responding to my SMS for 2-3 weeks. Seems that he was disappearing but thank God, he appeared and said that he would want to join me for cell... tomorrow... Glory unto God!!!

While chatting and updating my past blogs, this thought came to my mind... "The place of agreement is the place of power. A divided house cannot stand. Let us be world shakers and history makers in N20"

I really pray, with all my heart and soul that N20 members will rise up and that more will want to be discipled in the Word of God. Also, I pray that everyone will be of one vision. Not wanting to leave the cell or backslide from God but, in contrast, will want to draw closer and closer to God. To be a Godly person and that the cell will grow healthily.

YeeWen chatted with me through MSN and asked me about the decision that I need to make... What is my decision? I want to be a pilot, partly for the cash and I did not know what to do... Also, partly due to the fact that my parents are "pushing" me into the working world... In a way, they want me to be dependant upon myself... Which I've longed to do so since 1998, when I was 21... sigh...

Well, what to do? I guess I've to pray more and more often. To be more open to God's word and listen for His directions...

My prayer:

Father God in heaven. I come before You in Jesus' name. Forgive me of my sins. If I still hold any grudges or anger against anyone, I release them to You right now, in Jesus' name. I forgive them, just as how You've forgiven me.

Father, let me be so sensitive to Your Holy Spirit. Let me be able to get directions from You. I have been Asking, Seeking and Knocking Your door. Let Your will be done in my life. Where should I go to? Should I go into the society to work? If I should work, what should I work as? Which industry should I be involved in? Which company and what position should I be in? Father, if I should go back into school, to upgrade myself to become a dipolma holder, which Polytechnic should I go into? What course should I take?

Holy Spirit, You're my GUIDE, COMFORTER and my FRIEND. Teach me, guide me and show me the way. Show me what is God's will for me. I need directions. I need to know what do You have for me. Show me the way... Have Your way in my life...

Father God, I desire to be a leader. To lead Your people in Church and in cell. To lead more people into Your Kingdom. To be fully obedient to what You've called me to do. I pray that Lord, I'll have the desire to love Your people fervently and to love You whole-heartedly. I believe that You've called me into BIble School for a purpose. Not because of the desire that I have but it's a Godly desire You've placed into me. Use me, to be a equipped worker for Your Kingdom's sake and to do the things You want me to do.

Father, I also pray for my Cell group N20. I pray that You will direct Cheng Hao, Chang Chin and myself into leading the guys in N20 to love You more and to hungry more of You. I pray that every member will be committed to seek You and know that You are the One who is able to provide for us. Not only that, You are the one that they are to seek, not money or any other things.

Father, hear my cry... Hear the cry of my heart. Fulfill my desire... Let it be done in N20, according to YOur will. In Jesus' name.

Father I ask in Jesus' name that You will lead and guide my parents into Your Kingdom. I pray that as I begin to speak to them about what You will do, God, let it be done. I believe that You've spoken to me and have given me words to speak to my parents. I pray that You will use me like never before. Help my doubts. Help my parent's unbelifs.

Father, reward my parents, for they have been very hardworking and have been providing for me. Father, You said that You will bless those who blesses Your Children. Also, You said that if my earthly father knows to give me good things, what more, my heavenly Father, Who owns cattles on a thousand hills? It's You who empower people to get wealth. Help my parents get out of debts in Jesus' name I pray.

Father, speak to me. Show me Your ways I pray. Teach, guide, lead and show me... What You have for me I pray... Amen...

Sweet "revenge cum come back" from Manchester United~~~

Felt very tired and lethargy today in class... However, I can't seem to recall what happened... Hmm... Oh ya~~~ Silly me... I watched the match between Manchester United and Liverpool. Man, I was glad that I did watch the match. Rio Ferdinand's first match after eight long months!!! It was a memorial match and I know, there's a sense of "direction" when Rio comes back.

Final score... from a rather surprise scorer... Silvestre... best... He scored twice in a game, the same way... lolx... What a come back!!!

Went over to teach Wei Keong and one thing he never fails to do... That is to make me angry and really disappointed with him. I really wonder why... Did I take the wrong step in teaching him once again? Upset with him because he never do his work again... I'm really really really disappointed. I really do not know what will become of him when his exams comes... It's around the corner... I'm worried about him...

Boring day? Sure or not?

Initially, when I woke up at 5am, I thought it would be a boring day. However, I was wrong... I had one of the most fulfilling day of my life~~~

First, I was able to clean up my entire room. It's high time I ought to do so. Though it's no 100 percent done but it's on the way... Next, I spent the next couple of hours doing some ironing... Wahaha... Effective eh? Well, there are alot of things to be done...

This day, might be one of the most fulfilling day I've had. Cause I was able to do so much and was finally... able to go for a swim... Man... it's been MONTHS~~

Let me get to the bottom of the line... I've been greatly blessed. Though things seems strange but it's true and I somehow know it's not from God in certain times...

I thank God that my dad spoke to me about what do I intend to do in another two month's time. However, I find it strange because he began to nag and to tell me about his problems. I've no problems with him telling me his problems but it's about my dad being so negative. It really pulls down my faith in God. Surely, it's not of God...

After dinner, I was so tired after a day's work. I dozed off. However, I woke up at about 12pm. I guess God woke me up, telling me that He would want to fellowship with me. I obeyed... and I am glad that I did obeyed...

I started to pray shortly after I woke up. The Presence of God is truly here with me. I can feel it even right now. I prayed for my parents. Prayed for favor to be shown upon my parents and that they will have an open heart. That they will not think negatively as God is our provider. [Oh, forgot to say, my parents are yet saved. I'm the only one saved out of 5 of us in the family]

During my prayer, I prayed with such intensity that I broke down when I read Psalms 31. I believe that is from God because it really speaks to me. To get a confirmation from God, I felt prompted by the Holy Spirit to read Ephesians 3: 16. That hits the point.

I know deep down, that my walk with God is getting stronger. Even the message which I preached, using chinese during friday is a word from God to me. Not my message but from God to me.

I BELIEVE that I am in the season of breakthroughs. The promotions are coming for me. I will not be where I am. God is going to honor His words. Matthew 6: 33 That's why I spent 20 months to get trained in Bible school. Yes, I did not work much. Yes, I am not highly paid and neither am I highly educated. BUT GOD is able to do exceeding, abundantly, beyond and above what I can think or imagine.

Truly, whatever God says, are true. Whatever we sow, we reap. When I sow into souls, I reap more souls. When I sow into God's Kingdom, God will give me the desires of my heart. That I will become a blessing to the nations...

I really pray that whatever I am experincing is not only for the time being but for the rest of my life. I pray that I would grow stronger and stronger in Spirit and truth as time goes by... Lastly, I pray, that whoever reads my blog, will be strengthen in faith. It's not a story I conjured/ cooked up but it's my life time story. On how I walk my days with God...

HAPPENING DAY...

Sigh... late for once and that's it. Anyway, was late for area cleaning... 5mins and sigh... well what's discipline...???

Anyway, time really flies... Wahahaha... strange but true. Managed to talk to one of the classmate whom I've never spoken to even when our eyes met. Somehow, I manage to open up to her and talk to her for awhile... Even Jerr Blinn, I somehow manage to talk to her also... Wow... That means I've talked to two sisters... One whom I've always seen but never talk, while the other, was a team leader of mine yet I do not feel comfortable talking with... Something is happening to me... Yes, I'm opening myself up... not for relationships but to people around me...

4hours doing the area cleaning really flies. Gosh, I kept thinking that the soccer match between Manchester United and Liverpool is today. It's tomorrow... 3am. Either I don't watch it or I'll have to sleep early on Monday, then wake up to watch the match...

Breakthroughs For the Day

1. New Friend coming to Church:
Yes, I'm so happy today. Before going to Church, well... I did something bad... I did not go teach Wei Keong again today. However, I was able to reach out to Annie today.

I have been reaching out to her for about a month. However, she kept giving excuses that she wants to go have her tanning by the beach and hang out with her friends. I thank God that she sent me a message through the MSN and SMS to tell me that she wated to go Church today... BUT she's lazy to go out...

Nevertheless, I thank God for TECHNOLOGIES because I sent Annie the URL for Church's live telecast and I'm glad that God did not even disappoint me. In fact, after I sent her the URL, I thought she'd open it up immediately but she did not. What I want to thank God was that after she got to the site, she logged onto the web to watch the live telecast. While watching the entire service, she was asking me questions. I thank God for the very tangelible presence of His. It was the touch of God that melted her heart. When she shared things with me, I knew immediately that she was touched by the presence of God.

So, after watching the entire service, she SMS and I asked her how she felt... This were her responses after I asked her how was the service and how she felt:
"Erm... Was kinda touching N peaceful but sad cos when I heard the song "Sing", my tears just rolled down. Then in my mind, was a picture of my life, my mum and the feeling of wanting to be a Christian. Overall, there's a HAPPY, PEACEFUL AND LOVING feeling.."

This, I can boldly say, is the presence of God. It's beyond understanding... At the end of the SMS, I asked her if she's interested in attending service. She AGREED. GLORY UNTO GOD.

Once again, God have confirmed His words. That the harvest is truly plentiful...

2. Reaching out to Hee Jung:
It was while I was in Bernard's car that I took out my phone, to reach out to her once again. She came to Church, responded to the altar call but backslided due to some matters between me and her.

Did not want to reach out to her initially. However, God spoke through Bernard that I ought to reach out to her. Its not about anything else. It's the soul that counts. Each and every single soul, matters to God. If it matters to God, why would I want to give up or even despise? I was once in a state worse than her. If God loves me so much to give me chances upon chance, why not Hee Jung?

Nevertheless, I SMS her and "chatted" to her through the phone for a short while. In the end, she finally AGREED to come back to Church. Glory to God

See, when I asked her to come back after the misunderstandings we have had between each other, she refuses to come to Church and all these while, I thought she's attending another Church. However, I am wrong... Sigh...

Nevertheless, I thank God that I obeyed Him and did what is to be done. If not, she would be gone... forever...

Learnt that I ought not to take things for granted nor should I ever assume things to be this or that...

3. Surprise SMS from Angeline [City harvest Malaysia]
Was greatly touched and encouraged by what Angeline SMS to me. I am doing well... Just that there are times when I would fall into temptations. I thought I was totally hopeless and wanted to give up. Wanted to step up once again but did not know how... However, when she SMS me, I was surprised but am blessed. Even till this moment.

A couple of days back, I sent her an email... On "what it really means to be a Christian". Actually, I never expect any replies from anyone but this was her reply:
"When I stop and think of what it really means to be a Christian, I think of you. That's because your live your faith and God's love in so many ways. Everyday by helping others, by being a good listener, by being a loyal friend. You are a blessing, a source of strength, and a joy to know. And I just want you to tell you, how glad I am that God blessed my life, with you"

I am so encouraged. I always thought that I am not an example and no one would ever look up to me. Given that I feel that the people/ members in my cell are not thinking that way. However, I was wrong. In fact, many of them loves me and respected me. Just like how Angeline does. I really ought not to be negative but I SHOULD know what to do. To live a life, base upon God's words.

In fact, during my quiet time, God gave me a couple of verses:
Romans 4: 4
Romans: 14:4
Romans 12: 9 onwards
Of which, Romans 12 blessed me the most...
9 Let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good. 10 Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another; 11 not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord; 12 rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer; 13 distributing to the needs of the saints, given to hospitality. 14 Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. 15 Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. 16 Be of the same mind toward one another. Do not set your mind on high things, but associate with the humble. Do not be wise in your own opinion. 17 Repay no one evil for evil. Have regard for good things in the sight of all men. 18 If it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men. 19 Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, "Vengeance is Mine, I will repay," says the Lord. 20 Therefore "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; If he is thirsty, give him a drink; For in so doing you will heap coals of fire on his head." 21 Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Its very interesting how God speaks to His people. Indeed, He speaks to each one differently. This verse comes when I was seeking it hard... To ask God, what it really means to be a Christian... God knows what I am thinking... Even my dad does not know what I think but God knows my thoughts... =D

4. In prayer time:
Yes, I've gotten a breakthrough this time. Able to pray for more than 2hours in quiet time... Hehehe... Wonderful... I want to walk with God... Enjoy His presence more. I want to TREASURE His Presence MORE than before. I told God that I would want to spend more time with Him. Hehehe... I hope that it's not a spur of moment but I'd like the passion for God and to walk with God to strengthen as days goes by.

I want to be able to spend time with God from 9pm onwards, when I am not working. Also, to sleep before 12pm whenever I am not working. However, on days when I have cell/ service and when I am working, I'd want to spend at least an hour with God and to sleep asap, so that I would have the energy to stay up for lessons for the next day.

I would consider today the most exciting day I've ever had so far. I do hope that things will go... As the saying in the bible says, that in Christ, we are to grow from GLORY TO GLORY. I do not know what will happen on the 20th September 200 but God knows. In all things, I want to give God the glory and praises~~~

Spiritual Atmosphere

What a wonderful day... Finally, I've mustered up courage to gather the rest of the helpers to come and gather to pray for the entire cell. To pray for the brothers, especially...

God is GOOD. Not because of the good things He is doing in my life or for the cell group but because He is a good God. Amen?

Although Chang Chin and myself were late, however it was better late than never.[I need to get rid of the habit of being late] The prayer meeting was good... Before that, I've had great fellowship with the new members of the cell, who stays around my area... Rickson and Desmond...

Nevertheless, today is a wonderful time... Cause during service, when Pastor Aries shared the Word of God, I was blessed and touched. The message was on "Spiritual Atmosphere".

I do have a head-knowledge on what it means to be in the presence of God. Though I have experienced it, I took it for granted. Upon hearing what Pastor Aries shared, my perspective changed... for the better... Amen?

Let me review on "How to build a God filled Spiritual atmosphere":
1. Spirit of Holiness
Deuteronomy 23: 9- 10
Deuteronomy 23: 14

To have Spirit of Holiness, it does not mean to be sinlessly perfect. It means to say that I don't do things that greives God. So, in order to make our paths right with God, we ought to deal with these ares in our lives...

1 John 2: 15- 17
Three areas which we tend to fall into and MUST AVOID
a. Lust of the World
2 Kings5: 20- 22 and 2 Kings 5: 26
Gehazi - Gehazi was a man of God, who served Elijah. However, he never dealt with his life against "gold"/ money/ materialism.

So what happens? He did not succeed Elijah. Had Gehazi dealt with the area of his life which he knows is a problem, then he might have been the next Elijah, to get a double portion of anointing which Elijah had.

So, how can I be more anointed? How do I listen to God?
- By reading the word of Godand Spiritual books.

- Get rid of Worldliness. Get INTO Holiness. It is no longer I who lives, but Christ, lives in me...

Acts 8: 18- 21 [Our hearts got to be set right with God]

b. Lust of the Flesh
Numbers 26: 6- 8
What must we do to overcome temptation? It's all about FLEEING. That's what the bible says. Flee from temptation. Do not let it come to you... The moment it comes, FLEE. Go away from it as soon possible. Do not let it have the chance to "play" catching with you...

1 Corinthians 9:

c. Pride of Life
Luke 12: 16- 21
Reputation is also a form of pride. Our reputation does not matter. What others think about us does not matters. When we bow down our knees, cry before God, don't care what our neighbours says. What God says and thinks matters most.
Of course, we have to have a reputation. However, what I meant here is by ignoring what others say when we are in the presence of God and doing what the bible says. Don't stop even when others are saying things. So what if they call us Holy Joe? Hey, at least we are Holy. So what if we are in the world? We can be in the world but not of the world. Amen?
Psalms 51: 7
We got to be careful of what we say or do. Things that seems insignificant to us or habits which falls in the area of "grey" areas are to be dealt with. Not just leave it alone. God always CHASTIZE His beloved. The correction Rod is the best for those who are Child of God.

Insignificant experiences/ habits does grieves the Holy Spirit.

Therefore, when we want the Spirit of Holiness, we ought to GET RID of:
a. Lust of the World
b. Lust of the Flesh
c. Pride of Life

2. Spirit of Faith
2 Corinthians 4: 13
We can build a Strong Spiritual Atomsphere
Mark 6:5- 6
Hebrews 11: 33- 34
Through our confession and believing
Believing = Committed to the Word of God [ABSOLUTELY]
Confession = Confess the truth of God
Romans 10: 17
2 Corinthians 1: 20

Powerful right? Hehe.. Anyway, I thank God that I am able to learn these and be blessed by it all. The word of God WILL CHANGE my life~~~

Live recording...

Wow... I'm top of the world... Wahahaha... It's finally over... Words can't explain my joy... This joy, not through the fulfillment of my personal strength but through the help of God!!!

Yes!!! It's over... The recording while we were preaching. I really wonder if we could have a copy of the preaching. This is because it's tje first time for all of us. I believe that all of us, leaders or not, are relieved because we've done things up to Bible School's expectations and there were major improvements in all of us, especially Bernard.

Persoanlly, I'm more pleased with the performance which I've produced. I believe God had given me the courage to do it well and given me the words to say etc... I was glad, I was glad and I was glad to be able to do that well. However, I believe that I can do much more better... Hehehe... I feel as if I'll be going into full time ministry anytime... SOON~~~ Yay...

Yup, the episode of Chinese preaching's ended but there are many more obstacles to clear. Indeed, in all things that I have undergone, it's not useless and redundant. For all things, it's for a purpose. God created all things in our lives for a purpose, not just for fun.

Preaching in chinese and doing well was a major breakthrough for me, considering that I don't like to face the camera. Maybe cause I know I don't look good in it. However, I have another side of me... the side who wants more attention... to be on the camera etc... strange me... Is this from God? Ermm... I don't know... cause I enjoy it when I'm preaching or singing.... =D

Real boring day

Wow... each and everyone of my fellow Bible school mates are real powerful preachers. Sigh... They are cell group leaders what... What to do? But really, their chinese are good too... Thanks to our Taiwanese classmates who was our teachers. Teaching us to speak proper chinese...

The entire filming ended rather late... ermm.. later than usual. However, it does not effect much on me. Cause my work starts only after 5pm...

WeiMan is too much... asked me to start work at 5pm but in fact, my actual schedule states that I start work at 7pm. Oh well, what to do? Was there... just mix around with the rest...

First day back to work after so many days... It's a real experience. The people there, most of which I do not know. They are friendly but I feel uncomfortable with them... Maybe cause I'm used to the Spiritual environment in Church... That's why... Secondly, only one of them is saved but backslided... It's a good ground for me to sow seeds into their lives...

The working method and management changed and the new crew's method of working are really bad. As in, they just do things in a haphazard manner. There's no order to it...

As usual, I'm slower because its been a long time since I've last worked.... Slow me... Must not make mistakes again... Hahaha... I had been working there before, cannot make the same mistakes...

After a days' work, I was really dead beat but overall, I find today a rather fun day but I know more are to come... Though I did not record much of my other time spent... This is not because I've forgotten or nothing to write about but rather, I was resting... Wahahaha... Must need more rest... :D

Preaching in Chinese...

I have finally did it... Though it wasn't as what I've expected but it's over and I know I can improve on being better...

Preaching wasn't my forte. In fact, I was filled with doubts and was afraid of preaching hearsy, thus misleading others into the wrong way. It's a real stress. What's more, I'm facing a group of classmates who are not only year two students but are leaders in church... Stress...

Nevertheless, I now can boldly say that I can preach with confidence and that I'm confident that whatever I've preached, it's a good sermon... Just that I need to work on my delievery.

I really thank God for letting me go on missions work because it's because of the missions work that I dared to step out in faith to do what I've done. That's to preach. During my stay in Kular Lumpur, I gained and learnt alot of experiences. These are the most valuable and memorable to me...

In the first stop at City Harvest Malaysia, this was the stepping stone for me. I preached in Angeline's cell (One of Pastor Kevin's leader in City harvest Malaysia) Hee... I am so happy that God did not give me a Spirit of fear but of LOVE, COURAGE and SOUND MIND. This was because I was able to preach in Angeline's cell with convictions and there were results after I've preached... Glory unto God... I thank God for Angeline too, because if she did not tell me or even write to me, telling me about the growth in her cell, I'd not be improving my preaching too.

The second stop was another vital stop to where I was able to be, at City Harvest Christian Fellowship. This was the place where I led about three cell group meetings, one worship during service, was one of the backup vocals and almost had a debut on the song God gave to me. Hehehe... Ok... stop dwelling in the past... time to move on...

I really pray with all my heart that I'll be able to do well in this coming friday's recording. More stress... Pastor Tan will be viewing how each and everyone of us preached and will decide who will go China and be a translator in our future missions team... Wish me all the best and may God's blessings and presence be upon me... Also, that I will not fumble and make a mess out of the entire thing... hehehe...

Another sleepless night...

So sad... Slept for only 2hours and got up again. What in the world is happening to me? Alas... am I getting too nervous? Is it because of the chinese preaching test? I hope it's not but... it seems to be true...

Did nothing much... Guess, I've wasted time again... Silly me... must not be a fool... I don't want to waste time away... It's like waiting to die... :(

Did not have the motivation to do anything or want to go anywhere. Anyway, went down to meet up with my mom's boss. Wahaha... an opportunity to earn money. Hey! What's on your mind? Don't let your imaginations run wild. It's because I am selling a health product and she wants that product to cure her consipation. So, here I am, to help her with it... Hehehe...

Sometimes, I really do not understand my younger brother. See, I have a younger brother whose younger than me by six years old. Thing is that when he's in good mood, he will joke and play with me. (I'm not a kid but it's like to joke and jest with him) but when he's in a foul mood, well, hell breaks loose. He will behave as if he's gotten something up his anus. =X

Wahaha... what a description... Oh ya, about the chinese sermon... Headache man. When I think of it, I can't help but it seems that I keep having headaches over it. First, I thought of writing on 1 Kings 18 but as time goes, I find it rather "dry" not because it's not interesting in 1 Kings but I guess I lost that motivation to write on 1 Kings.

Something interesting in 1 Kings 18. First, Elijah SUDDENLY APPEARED in front of Ahad, then the next thing is a real treat to think about. About Elijah, the man of the ONE TRUE GOD against a WHOOPING NINE HUNDRED AND FIFTY "Priests" of gods. One against nine hundred and fifty men. Wahh... It's got to be some sight. Something eventful...

The difference between Elijah and the rest of the nine hundred and fifty men was that God SPOKE to Elijah. While the rest, they assumed that something will happen when they "sacrifice" themselves to god, cutting and doing funny things to get attention of god. In this one chapter in 1 Kings 13- 1 Kings 18, it speaks alot to me... There are two parts which speaks to me deeply within my heart...

Firstly, on Elijah Against the Nine hundred and Fifty "priest"

1. What you know does never matters but what matters is really on WHO do you know
2. When what you worship is not true, they are never real and will never be real, despite what you do. To God, obedience is better than sacrifice.
3. God SPEAKS and is not like those who neither hears or speaks but stays in a position, seemingly, having ears yet never hear, eyes, never see etc...
4. As a Man of God, in whatever situations we face, we got to know that we are called and be sure of what we hear from God. Never to waver. God never takes His words back but it'll all be yes and Amen. We must be like a tree standing by the water side, never to be moved.
5. God is Faithful. When He speaks to someone about something, He will be be with the person, never to leave the person.

Secondly, about the Man of God, who's nameless and who went to warn King Jeroboam but turned out to be arrested... 1 Kings 13

1. Doing the work of God requires us to sacrifice all that we have - The gain outweighs the lost.
2. When God speaks, we obey. Do not be wavered by what others says
3. Give total submission unto God. Leave no reservations about serving God
4. Do not submit to other things of the world, fear God, not the world. Never bow down to riches.
5. Even if others comes to us as a prophet of God, we got to discern and seek help from God. It's better to be safe than sorry.

Well, what a write up... Hmmm... Must learn from these lessons. These are placed in the bible for a reason. Every single word and events are for a purpose. It's not by coincidence!

Funny how things turn out everyday of life. Yes, am back to Cafe Cartel. Working over there is good but the pay's not that good. Oh well, what to do? Though I do not get to work as much as I want or earn as much as I want, but it's alright. Maybe God wants to show me something through this job with Cartel.

Did not sleep well last night. Slept at 2am but woke up at about 6am. I'm sure I'm not thinking about anything but I really thank God that I am able to stay awake for the rest of the day and be alert too.

There are so many changes in Cartel that I am rather speechless. However, the change is also for the good of workers and for the company. Glad that this change is brought about. If not, this will be the most SLACK company I have ever worked for.

I thank God that I found favour in my boss' eyes cause I was late for 19 minutes. However due to the fact that I am not aware of the new "rules" brought into the company, they did not deduct my salary at all. If not, I'd have half of my first hour's pay gone and worked in vain as I worked 20 Minutes more than the stated time given.


Had a wonderful time with the missions team and with Pastor Joshua's team. It was simply wonderful. Kept reminding me of how are the times spent in Malaysia during my mission trip and how blessed I am to be able to get to know such an anointed person like Pastor Joshua. Indeed it's a great blessing to be able to go for missions.

After a good time with Pastor Joshua, his team and the rest of the Singapore mission's team, all of us headed back It was a wonderful yet fulfilling time spent together. One thing has been in the thoughts of mine... that is a hope that Pastor would lay hands on me and pray for me. Pray that I would receive direction in life and anointing to be like Pastor.

Funny, one things came to me thought as I was recording down these. That is, Jesus has already given me the direction and anointing, what more do I need? Am I being sound with this doctrine? I doubt so, cause if the laying of hands is not needed, why Jesus laid hands upon His people? Why would Apostle Paul lay hands on the sick? Exalting us to pray for one another, with the laying on of hands? To lay hands on those who who are to be leaders. So, I believe that this is the devil speaking. Not God. We must have the laying on of hands... :D

Messing with the URLs and webpages...

Sianz... whatever I have typed... are all gonez... Especially this part of the blog... Sigh... how ah???

A fast re-cap...

Was supposed to go and celebrate Sis Gillian's B'day help out in Chinese Church, then to tuition. After tuition, got home, read bible, prayed and "messed" with the URLs, webpages and html codes etc...

Let me see if I still have the motivation to re-do the things I have done... Sad case, rite?

Oh well, let me have a go at it...

Turned down two appointments as I want to save up to pay up my debts. One, to celebrate Sis Gillian's birthday and to turn up to help up Chinese Church. Abit slack today... sigh...

Went down to to teach WeeKeong and man, I was really aigtated with his attitude and the way he does things. Kind of reflected on how I was, as a kid... lolx

Since young, my dad has been telling me that "time and tide, waits for no man". Indeed, this saying is truth and that I am experiencing it now. It does not wait for me. Kind of like a reminder and "revelation" to me that, indeed, time does never wait for a person. It is no respector of person; except God.

After teaching WeeKeong, well, I was rather sad and disappointed with him. Gave him work but he never does any of it. Instead, he just wasted my time by asking me to give him time to learn spelling and to check the works, which he never placed any efforts into doing it, for me to mark it. I mean... arrgghhh... what in the world is he thinking? I wonder...

After leaving that "disappointing and sad" place, I headed home. While travelling, I read the bible and what it never fails to do whenever I read the Word of God is that it never fails to speak to me. However, I think I really need to fine tune the "antenna" with me to receive from God more clearly and have a revelation of what it actually meant. One area I need to look into. "Fine tuning of my ears and sensitivity towards the things God speaks to me

Although the trip from WeeKeong's place to home was about 20 minutes, it was ample enough for God to speak to me in many ways. I really enjoy doing that. To read God's words and to have God speaking to me through His words. However, I also need wisdom to manage time. Time management is an important factor which I must master. If not, how can I be able to do greater things for God? Which leads my thoughts to "Stewardship". I really need to be a better steward and need to be able to handle time more properly.

Interesting thing about having to write a blog are that:
1. It helps me to reflect upon the things done
2. It helps me to remember things that I did
3. It helps me to recell the things I heard and done so that I can either improve or stay from mistakes made.

See, now I am even able to come up with a three point "sermon" on writing a blog... Wahahaha...

Oh yes, in case I forgot... I had a very short meeting with Bro Bobby. It was regarding promotion to a Ministry Member. Hmmm... Was interesting cause it has been so long since I got promoted to become a Ordinary Member and also, it's been about a year and a half since I joined a ministry. Ministry is my love~~~ Choir... hehehe...

Interesting, whenever I meet up with Bro Bobby, my heart would be so nervous. Maybe cause he is the dean of Bible school. That's why all the more, I am tensed up.

Yesterday, after service, I've finally managed to talk with some of the brothers in cell group. Hope that as we, helpers begin to unify and help one another, the rest of the brothers, regardless of the maturity and age in Christ or naturally, will be challenged to rise up for a cause. To rise up to be a WARRIOR of God.

Anyway, I really need wisdom to handle and to disciple the brothers in cell. There are a total of 30 brothers. How to handle? I believe I can. Not because of my own ability but by Christ who strengthens me. AMEN!

Ok, back to what happened to day. After reaching home, I was so engrossed with trying to make this blog look nicer and keep adding things. To serve as a reminder to myself as well as to remember and reflect on what had happened today. Cool eh? But I wonder if it's taking way too much of my time...

When I was doing the html codes, webpages and all, something came to my mind... "Practice makes permanent/ perfect" Well, I have a revelation even out of doing a blog/ webpage. Powerful. I had forgotten some of the html codes I've learnt during my education with Temasek poly but I thank God for the Holy Spirit. It was because He reminded me of things which I have forgotten.

Wow... powerful la me. Short re-cap. Indeed, it's very "SHORT". Wahahaha... not forgetting that I did not type out my prayer list/ request...

Anyway, I guess I've spent quiet a lot of time here... Time to do other things... If you're reading it, help empower my prayer by praying for me too... These are the areas I need prayers in:

• Relationship with my family members will grow better and stronger
• That I will be the "Light and Salt" unto my family members
• That they will be saved in Jesus' name
• My parents will have break through financially and in the area of business too. They are selling yong tau fu but the business is not doing very well. Do pray that my parents will have an income of $200 per day. [Overall sales]
• That my ears and heart will be so sensitive to the Holy Spirit
• I will receive more anointing from God to do greater works.
• Be able to have wisdom to lead the cell group's brother into stronger Christian walk with God.
• Greater passion for the people in cell and the lost.
• The fire God placed within me will not be lost but will grow from glory to glory. To be so great and influencial that it'll encourage others to step out in faith as well as to trust God with all their hearts.
• Anointing of God to be upon me so that when I preach or even talk to people/ when they read/ hear what I say, they will be touched by the Presence of God.
• Be an influence to the cell group that they will be motivated to love God and love people more and more
• Members will not be so self-centred but will care and concern for the rest in cell

Yeah, these are all. Thank you for praying for me. May God bless you bountifully.

Into Your Hands, I COMMIT AGAIN... My future...

Father God in heaven, I commit my life and my entire future into Your hands again. God, I know I may be worrying for the silly things in life but I worry that I may end up being single all my life. I know You have planned for me the best girl I can ever have in life but it's been four years since I prayed till now. Things are not happening yet.

Maybe You are right. I don't need to worry that much. You have already planned but I am really anxious about finding a partner in life... Lord Jesus, I need a partner who is comparable to me. God, You said that it's not good for a man to be alone and that You will give a partner who is comparable to the man. I CLAIM Your promise in Jesus' name.

Father in heaven. I pray in the name of Jesus of Nazareath, Christ, Your ONLY begotten Son's name. God, You said that I can be as specific as I can in my prayer and that You are a God who see things in details.

I pray that Lord, the girl whom will be my wife, will be someone who LOVES You WHOLEHEARTEDLY. One who LOVES to sing praise/ worship You. One who will be sensitive to Your voice. She got to be a BELIEVER OF JESUS CHRIST.

This girl will be someone who will NOT be YOUNGER than me by Six years of age. She got to be a fillial daughter who is the FIRSTBORN of the family. She got to be a chinese or a girl who knows the language that I speak. Best, if she's a Singaporean but if she's not, it's alright. She must have a heart for missions and for the lost.

The person got to FAITHFUL, loves people, respect elders, kind, loving, gentle, wise, sharp in Spirit, discerning, submissive, knows some instruments, classy, understanding etc... In short, a person with GOOD ATTITUDE with GOOD CHARACTER

God, I guess these are the things I want to see in the girl who will be my wife... I pray all these in Jesus' name.. Amen

Silly right? Well, I don't know why I prayed that prayer. Maybe I am getting impatient in wanting to find a partner. Oh well, yes, I am getting a little... not little... am getting impatient in finding a life time partner. When will the time come? Did I hear clearly from God or was that my own mind playing at myself?

Sigh... God, can You help me with this area which I cannot even control at all? Looking all around me, there are so many who are attached and many more who are younger than me by MORE THAN six years old... How shall I go about having a life time partner? Into Your hands, I commit this area into Your hands. Not my will, but Your will be done God

Am in dept, how to solve?
AXA= about Sing dollar, 2K
NTUC= About Sing dollar 2K
Misc= 2K
God, how to solve these? How can I find a way out of financial breakthrough? My family members are not doing that well. Business in the market for my parents is not growing but is stucked at a hundred dollars or so... at best, a hundred and fifty...

Am working part time, as a tuitor and a waiter. Tuition, I do not know if they are really keen in letting me teach anymore. Maybe once every two months, I get paid... A hundred and sixty. For the waiter job, it's unstable. I want to serve God more than serving people. To seek Him first than myself. By right, God will reward me but I really wonder what is happening...

God, I CLAIM Matthew 6:33 : "Seek Him First the Kingdom of God and ALL Your Righteousness and ALL these THINGS shall be ADDED UNTO thee" Into my life. I pray that Lord, You honor Your word and let it come to pass...

Help me get out of debt and poverty and get into the realm of abundance. Let me be able to go for missions, to help the poor etc... I do not want to feel helpless when I see someone in need.

Father, I pray that my heart will not be harden or will my heart feel numb. Give me a brand new heart so that I can hear from You. A tender heart that will always OBEY You and Your voice/ direction.

Prayers answered
Have been praying for the past couple of nights that my heart be opened to God and always be able to hear from Him and thank God for Pastor Kong. God used Pastor to speak to me through the service.

When I "revised" upon the notes I took, I know that Holy Spirit is reminding me of things I heard during service.

1. Spiritual Hunger and thirst
John 3: 37

• There got to be a constant hunger and thirst for God
• Hunger and thirst are built in nature within us. We get hungry and thirsty ALL the times.
• I am hungry and thirsty all the time for food and water, why not the same for God?
• What's true in the natural is true Spiritually. So, when I hunger and thirst for God to move in my life; to hear from God, I will definately attract God, Holy Spirit and Jesus into my life.

2. Openess

• I got to be OPEN to the Holy Spirit. Open to the changes He wants in my life and the changes He will bring about in my life.
• I must not resist the change the Holy Spirit want to bring into my life. He's a gentleman and will NEVER force His will upon me.

3. Faith

• I have to come to God in confidence and in faith.
• "without faith, its impossible to please God"
• "Faith without works is dead"
• Faith is not only a fact, its also an ACT!
• "Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God" - It's obvious that I got to hear God's word. However, I also need to read the Word of God and Pray as well.
• Prayer is communicating with God. Its to commune with God.

4. Obedience

• As it's been mentioned above. Faith is not only a fact but its also an ACT.
• Walk the walk and talk the talk. If I only walk the walk and not talk the talk, I am not glorifying God. Same goes vice versa. I need to walk the talk and talk the walk.
• Fully submitting to God. It's no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me.
• Do what please God; Not men.
• "Obedience is better than sacrifices"
• Yield to God/ Holy Spirit or Jesus.
• Abraham, Moses, Joshua, Joseph, King David all the way, to Jesus, to the Apostles, to the present Church leaders are people who OBEYED God's voice and callings.

John 7: 37

Those who hunger and thirst, they shall be filled..
Lord Jesus, I hunger and thirst for a mighty move of Yours in my life. Its no longer I who live but Christ, who lives in me. Lead me and guide me all the days of my life. Lord Jesus, INCREASE in my life while I decrease.

I want to be a carrier of Your presence and anointing. I want to be a true disciple of Christ Jesus, Your beloved Son, whom You've sent down to die for my sins.

Father God, I thank You for all the things You're doing in my life. Let my ears be so sensitive to Your words, my heart, so sensitive to Your promptings and my entire being, so alert in all that You want to do. Speak to me, as in the only way You know best. Direct my paths, all the days of my life.

In Jesus' name, I thank You for this wonderful day I pray. Amen!